Thursday, December 1, 2011

Good Days and Bad

Good days and bad days... heck, good moments and bad moments... that's my life  right now - and for most of the past two and a half years.

I'm getting stronger every day and learning to let go of  worrying about things I can't control.  I'm learning to get out of my own mind and actually participate in the world around me... At least that's what I'm trying to do.

I went to bed the other night and, as usual, that's when my mind really kicks into gear and the thoughts started going around and around in my head.  Thoughts about some issues in my own personal life, Tanner - his life and cancer, Trevor - and all we've been through with him, my family that has slipped away - and I found myself curling into a fetal position with the weight of it all.  Why do we curl up like a baby when we are in pain?

But...  today is another day and I'm alive, Tanner is alive, Trevor is alive and we are all going to be okay today... Tomorrow will take care of itself... and tomorrow we head back to Dallas to see Dr. Berryman.

"They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel"... Carl W. Buechner

1 comment:

  1. Angie: I'm not sure why my first comment didn't post.....gotta' love blogspot!!

    I know exactly how you feel....there are times, when I go to bed, I wish that I had a "turn off switch" for all those thoughts that keep circling.

    Can't wait to hear the report from Dr. B.

    Hugs from MS to TX.....