There's so much positive in my life. For every "burden" or "negative" - there's also something wonderful and good.
Even though my sons sometimes struggle and make mistakes, the love I feel for them and they feel for me is unending and without hesitation. For all the times I feel alone in this world because of the family and loved ones I've lost, I have friends who have become the best family anyone could ever wish for. I have loved without reservation. I have two of the most beautiful grandchildren in the world and simply looking upon their faces fills my heart with happiness. I have much to be grateful for.
No matter what tomorrow brings, I've had a depth of love in my life that many people in this world will never experience.
My world was knocked off it's axis and any level of stability was taken away from me and I've been on a path that's gone in circles for a few years now. Like a merry go round... you think you're making progress and you look up and you're back where you started. I've seen what I need to do and have tried to change directions... incorporate more people and options into my world... to find another purpose and reason for my life... It's just hard... sometimes....
The new improved tomorrow isn't what it used to be
Yesterday keeps comin' 'round, it's just reality
It's the same damn song with a different melody...
The same sunrise, it's just another day
If you hang in long enough they say you're comin' back
Just take a look, we're living proof and baby that's a fact
You know the more things change the more they stay the same
Never and forever just keep comin' back again
Don't hold out for tomorrow or hold onto yesterday
Jon Bon Jovi-Richard Sambora