Wednesday, April 11, 2012

A Milestone Approaches

Tanner is going to be twenty this Saturday.  It's hard to believe... Twenty years old...

It's also hard to believe that it's been nearly three years since we discovered he has Multiple Myeloma. On one hand the time has flown and on the other, it's seems like forever.

So much has happened. Good and bad - for him and I both.  He's gotten a girlfriend, moved out, gotten engaged... and I still have to hear from him every day.  At least a text, if not a call.  If I don't hear from him by 1 - 2 p.m., I send a text, "Are you okay today?"  He was telling the doctor about that daily text just the other day.

It's not easy to be a mother... but the love, more than anything, is so overwhelming.

He and I both leaned on each other so heavily while we were in Arkansas those first six months after his diagnosis.  Then we came home back to Texas, only to find that the lives of those we counted on had progressed on without us...  The girl he had started dating right before his diagnosis, loved ones, family, friends... Things change... Life continues...

We are all finding our way.  I'm ready to be happy... I'm tired of being sad... So very tired...

The manner in which one endures is more important than the thing that must be endured... Dean Acheson


  1. Happy Birthday Tanner! Yes, it's true that people get on with their lives and ours seem to be on hold. We have lost quite a few people, family members included, who I guess did not want my husband's MM to affect their lives. We have met others, in this journey, who have helped us beyond measure. I'd say it balances out, but it's hard to be betrayed by people you've been there for so many times in the past. Life is about adapting and moving forward. Blessings to you all!!!

    1. Thank you for taking the time to comment! Yes, family moving on hurts and there's not much about the MM journey that's any good - other than the wonderul and strong friends you meet who are all traveling the same path!

  2. Happy Birthday, Tanner! Intending this is a wonderful year for you, and that you, Angie, are finding your path to happiness so you can have a wonder-filled year, too!

    1. Thank you Sandy! Tanner and I are both doing our best to make the best of this beautiful Spring!