Wednesday, September 22, 2010
About time for AR
The Arkansas tension has arrived.
I was "ok" all day at work today and then I went out to dinner and started crying and have been crying off and on all evening.
I saw what my mom went through with all of her children, but I never truly grasped the worry that a parent endures until I had my boys.
On another note, we have this thing in our family called a "Cemetery Working" where we take flowers down to the cemetery in Red River where most of our family is buried. You place the flowers on the graves and have a picnic out in front in the designated picnic area. My mom, dad, two brothers, grandmother, and aunts and uncles are buried there.
The Cemetery Working (or as my Aunt Tincey says, Homecoming) is the first Saturday of October, which is the Saturday that Tanner and I return from Arkansas. I keep going back and forth about whether or not I should take the flowers on down there this weekend (I promised my mom I would make sure there were flowers there) or stop on the way back from Little Rock the morning of the Cemetery Working.
My fear is, what if something happens that stops me from getting there Saturday morning? Tanner has two doctor's appointments Friday which most likely means we will be there all day. Depending on how late we get through will depend on when we can head back to Texas and, though I plan on going to the homecoming, what if we just can't make it?