Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Maintenance Chemo - Again
I had a long conversation with Dr. Allbritton last week and to say she was a little "concerned" regarding our recent visit to Arkansas for the results of Tanner's restaging tests is putting it mildly.
She agrees that pursuing the possibility of local treatment is something that we need to explore and we have obtained referrals to a couple of different doctors in Dallas. I am in the process of scheduling Tanner for a "2nd opinion" appointment as soon as we can get him into one of their offices.
Dr. Robert Berryman is a highly recommended Oncologist at the Blood & Marrow Clinic in the Sammons Cancer Center through Baylor Hospital. He is affiliated with the Multiple Myeloma Research Foundation and participates in several of their clinical trials.
Dr. Larry Anderson from UT Southwestern Medical Center is another Oncologist who came highly recommended as a Multiple Myeloma specialist.
I'm hoping to get Tanner in to see one or both of these physicians in the near future so that I can get a "feel" for them and their treatment recommendations.
I've thought long and hard about all of this... Believe me, the concept of changing doctors is stressful (to put it mildly) but I feel that I have to truly look at all aspects of Tanner's medical care - and that has to include our ability to maintain "life", (i.e., food, shelter, and support) while he is undergoing treatment.
Sometimes people tell me they don't see how I keep functioning the way I do... How I "handle everything so well"... I tell them I have to "keep going " every day... But I'm struggling right now... Somtimes this being a single mother with sons is almost more than I can bear... I haven't lived up to the potential of motherhood the way I always dreamed I would... Sometimes it's hard to handle all of "this" alone...
There's a wall in front of me, I can see it, and I think I'm about to hit it...