Thursday, October 21, 2010


I took Tanner yesterday to have his brace refitted.  After seven or so months in the same brace (which has been in several swimming pools, lakes, and rivers this summer), it was becoming quite worn out, not to mention that his leg has gotten larger and it was beginning to cut into the skin. 

The technician at Hanger Proesthetics took one look at the brace and decided that he just needed a completely new one.  She told him to hang onto the old one and if he decides to go swimming anymore to be sure and use the old brace. 

This morning I took him for an evaluation and it was decided that he could benefit from some one on one counseling.  It seems that the stress from the last year has caught up with him and is wearing him down and affecting him in his daily life. 

He will have one private session a week starting tomorrow afternoon.  I hope that this gives him some relief.

This afternoon we went to his weekly maintenance chemo appointment and had a long talk with Dr. Albritton.  During our talk, Tanner made a statement along the lines of that he's decided that he wants to spend "what life he has" living right and enjoying his family.  The doctor told him they are going to do everything in their power to see that he has a long life.

It's those moments when something unexpected comes out of his mouth, or the reality of his situation will hit me out of the blue, that my heart just breaks all over again.

The doctor asked me how I was doing and I told her that I was doing "ok".  I have bad moments, but all in all, I do okay.  I am just so very tired most of the time.   

She told me that she thought I would benefit from some counseling myself but I have to admit, I've had problems with counseling in the past.  It's often very hard for me to open up to people, and if I'm going to be quite honest, I just don't have money to waste on counseling for myself.

Sooo, what I will continue to do is what I've been doing for the last year.  I will turn to the blog.  Hope you guys don't mind....

1 comment:

  1. Angie, I think about you two all the time! I started following your blog not too long ago, and I just want you to know that I have laughed and rejoiced with you through the good news, and cried with you through the not so good news. Just so you know....someone is listening.

    Cara Lawrence ;o)