Monday, July 5, 2010
Dr. Nicholas says he doesn't know why, but Tanner's broken leg still doesn't seem to be healing. It's been over a year, and in his words Tanner is "a kid" and "should be healing" but he isn't.
They are going to give him until September when we go back to see Dr. Barlogie and are going to do another CAT Scan. If he isn't healing by then, they want to do surgery to put a nail in his bone.
Dr. Barlogie thinks this has to be done in Arkansas by an Oncologist Orthopedic Surgeon (such as Dr. Nicholas) who is familiar with Multiple Myeloma to assure Tanner the best possible outcome. In his words, if an inexperienced physician performs the surgery, then Tanner could end up crippled for life.
On the other hand, Tanner's insurance has dropped UAMS from their in-network facilities and we are now faced with a $10,000 deductible and 50% co-pay.
What does a parent do? On the one hand, the people in Arkansas are telling me to not worry about the money, but on the other hand I am receiving collection letters every day - and now the collectors are calling Tanner on his cell phone (since he has turned 18 years 0ld).
Do you know what it's like to be a mother who can't fix what's wrong with her child?
The people in Dr. B's office have told me not to worry about the money, but it's just reality and I do worry about it. I worry constantly. Tonight I had a complete break down on Kirk (thanks for always being there for me).
I would give anything to be able to just "fix" my children but I can't and sometimes it hurts almost more than I can bear.