Monday, July 5, 2010


Dr. Nicholas says he doesn't know why, but Tanner's broken leg still doesn't seem to be healing. It's been over a year, and in his words Tanner is "a kid" and "should be healing" but he isn't.

They are going to give him until September when we go back to see Dr. Barlogie and are going to do another CAT Scan. If he isn't healing by then, they want to do surgery to put a nail in his bone.

Dr. Barlogie thinks this has to be done in Arkansas by an Oncologist Orthopedic Surgeon (such as Dr. Nicholas) who is familiar with Multiple Myeloma to assure Tanner the best possible outcome. In his words, if an inexperienced physician performs the surgery, then Tanner could end up crippled for life.

On the other hand, Tanner's insurance has dropped UAMS from their in-network facilities and we are now faced with a $10,000 deductible and 50% co-pay.

What does a parent do? On the one hand, the people in Arkansas are telling me to not worry about the money, but on the other hand I am receiving collection letters every day - and now the collectors are calling Tanner on his cell phone (since he has turned 18 years 0ld).

Do you know what it's like to be a mother who can't fix what's wrong with her child?
The people in Dr. B's office have told me not to worry about the money, but it's just reality and I do worry about it. I worry constantly. Tonight I had a complete break down on Kirk (thanks for always being there for me).

I would give anything to be able to just "fix" my children but I can't and sometimes it hurts almost more than I can bear.


  1. Yes, Mother's know what it is like to not be able to "fix" everything for their kids. God gave Mother's something special when he made them...the love, the caring, the deep deep deep gut wrenching determination to protect their offspring. I have felt it many many times. When I was younger I actually thought I could make everything alright for my that I am older I know that everything is in God's hands. I have become much less anxious and much more trusting. I may not like or understand the outcomes, but I am accepting to God's plans for us all. Tanner will be just fine and one day all of this will be behind us....we may even be able to laugh about it. Regardless, we take each hurdle as it comes to us and jump over it. As family, I will always be there for whatever the task. God's blessings, Granny and Pop

  2. Hi Angie, I don't know if you are interested in "complimentary" therapies, but there is a great Homeopathic remedy for broken bones called commonly "knit bone". I shared this information with older friends in their 80s who have broken bones and they healed remarkably well, when told they wouldn't have use of the limb by the docs. Just a thought to include it in Tanner's healing.